The Journey of Motherhood
It's been a wild year for the King household, with the birth of our first son, Oskar Avery, working full time and cranking out some freelancing on the side the minute my little man’s head hits the pillow. And of course, there’s cooking meals, taking care of a house, spending time with each other & our families, getting involved in church and hanging with our buds. All amazing things to have on our plate, but things nonetheless. We have so enjoyed this journey of parenthood, and although at times it has been overwhelming, it truly has felt like we have naturally changed and grown through the process. Who would’ve thought in the throes of sleepless nights and baby food found in places I didn’t know existed, that I not only can handle motherhood, I adore it. It's amazing that we have felt exactly what everyone tells us we will feel—an inexplicable love for our growing family that has brought a whole new perspective and meaning to our life.
I am convinced that we as humans can handle a lot more than we think we can. We are strong and capable, and although I didn't think it possible that I could feed a baby from my body(!), wake up in the middle of the night, go back to work a 40 hour week all while doing the things that WE love, we can! WE CAN! It is a liberating feeling knowing that we were designed to love on these little humans that we bring into the world. And we can do it that way that works for our family.
And then there is the other side of the story—the feeling of being in a constant state of overload, and longing for a calming peace in the midst of this beautiful crazy thing that we call life. This year, I have longed for flexibility, more time with my son, and more time to spend designing for people that are going through big & bold life transitions—weddings, babies, new businesses, and so on. After many months of prayer and conversation, our family decided we needed to make a change. I quit my job and threw away the security of my regular paycheck, with the hope of building a life that looked different than the life we were currently living. I am currently at home with Oskar and freelancing during nap times and evenings—and although I am surprisingly just as mentally & physically tired by the time the sun sets as when I worked a full time job, I am at peace with my decision. Being at home more and creating margin for whatever God has in store for me in these days or years to come has become crucial to me. My husband has certainly made a huge sacrifice in order to make this possible—and for that, I am so incredibly grateful.
My decision has felt right for us, but I love the fact that everyone can do parenthood differently. There is no right answer on how to do this parenting thing, but we have a chance to mold and make our lives into how we imagined doing it. I am excited for this new adventure and all I can say is YOU GO, MOM! YOU GO, DAD! YOU GUYS DO YOU! Love on that little one with all that you have, and do what is best for your family. This is just the very beginning of a new chapter for me, but I am so incredibly grateful for where I am at, and I want to choose to live in that gratefulness every day—whether the sun is shining, everything is peachy or just hard as hell. This is life, and I choose to celebrate the goodness along the way!